I haven't updated my blog for a while, because I basically have no idea WHAT is going on!!!
Since the cancellation of my stimulator implant surgery, it has been extremely difficult to get any straight answers from anyone.
All I know is;
* I should get the operation in 2014 at some point
* They still haven't got in contact with the representatives from St Jude's, so can't plan a proposed date, in case it changes.
I realised the other day, that I haven't had any operations to help me through since November 2013!!!
Mainly because I was constantly waiting for the date for the implant and so was working toward a date constantly. That helped me get through the hard times, as I would think I only had X amount of weeks to get through BUT it actually now means that I can't really think about a temporary option as the date for the permanent may come up and I need to know how I am feeling from it, without any pain relief blocking it's benefits.
Honestly, I can't believe I've been left this long within being told anything!!!!!!
In the mean time, I have found that going to the gym and actually working my muscles is helping somewhat. I feel less intense pain, far less often. It's only been a couple of months of going, but am pleased I have found something to help me through this long wait.