Yet another September with no idea if I'll make it!

So, here is another September, the start of a new school year, when the worry sets in about whether I will make it through this year. 

To be honest, it's more like will I make it through this term!! 

Last year was different, I had support in that I shared my class and I had one day out the classroom doing other educational work. BUT this year that has been taken away, despite the fact that I am in the same position as I was a year ago.....waiting for the permanent stimulator.

The two years before that though were truly difficult. I only just made it to the end of September both years. I had temporary operation after temporary operation but it meant I had about half the year out of work.

I really don't want that to be my future this year!! I NEED that operation to save my career and sanity!

Already, since the summer, my pain has increased. It is still up and down but the highest levels are much more often and much more painful than there were during my holidays.

Today I experienced my first dizzy spell whilst teaching. I know I can almost manage to ensure the children don't really notice but I know this is just the start. I've been back at work for 6 days!!!

This is utterly ridiculous :(