Plan after plan

It seems that I am continually making plans for how I will cope with work, the wait for the operation and the stress in my life. 

I have lost count at how many different plans I have concocted and then revamped, altered, pushed aside, but here I am. I am still at work. I've made 3 weeks so far but all that is keeping me going in the fact that there can't be long left until my operation. I am enjoying some aspects of being back at work, seeing all my old classes. They honestly have missed me and it truly shows with all the smiles, hugs and lovely conversations. The same can be said for the parents too.

Then there is the added stress that is coming from above at work. I have recently been issued a formal warning for my attendance as I hit two of the three triggers. This lead to a formal meeting where some adjustments have been put in place and it gave me the chance to fully explain my condition and the surgery. However, it is still clear that some adjustments are not being stuck to by members of staff who obviously don't feel they are important enough. 

Within all this, I am experiencing a lot more discomfort from my wire and battery sites. They pull and hurt when I stretch or carry heavy items, like shopping bags. It feels like a constant bruise over my ribs.

You can now clearly see the battery as it has been pushed so far forward and it now flips really easily if I forget to hold my hand there when I bend down or forwards. 

Here are a few more updates photos, perhaps the last ones before my next surgery. 

Here you can see the extension connection of the wires below my still red and raised scar on my chest. 

I am hoping they will cut this part out when they cut it back open again, as that is where I've decided is best to have the battery to avoid the same issues with the wire. I would like it quite far down though so it isn't where I have no extra flesh to conceal it. 

You can now see the wire path much more clearly than ever before. Losing weight has caused this issue. It has also left me with no body fat over my ribs, so my bra now runs on the wire. Which is very uncomfortable. 

The loop of excess wire at the back of my head is much more prominent now. It itches still and protrudes a lot, making it even harder to scratch. 

So now all I need is this operation. So many added issues will be resolved, but I truly hope the head pain can get under control this time round. 

I have plans to help me cope with work and the stress. I have plans to move forward with my own life. I just need this to work out as hoped so that I don't have to create any more plans that revolve around unexpected surgery.